M.E. - The Big C

Down inside, each of us knows when something is wrong, why is it that we try to deny that. In 2003 I tried for months to ignore the symptoms I was having in my physical body. Finally I gave into the prompting of the Holy Spirit and the strong urging of Pastor Lori and I went to the doctor to be checked.

After a number of tests, a lumpectomy and a biopsy I received words on my voicemail at work that no one wants to hear. Yes, my surgeon left me a voice mail that the biopsy results were not good and that I needed to make an appointment with the oncologist. The next day in the surgeons office I heard what he said as if I was not in the room. I sat there unable to say anything as he told me I should have both breast removed.

How I got from Bellevue to Monroe I don’t know, I had called Kyle and told him before I went to see Pastor Lori. She and I sat in the old church offices where we cried some, we laughed some and we talked. We just sat and talked and then we talked some more. After a while when we were talked out I got in my car and went to work because I didn't know anything else to do. I don’t remember getting to work or even being there that day. What I remember is that as I was leaving at my normal at the end of the day and as I walked out the doors on my way to the parking lot, I heard the Lord speak to my spirit and He told me He would provide us a strategy. I needed to be like Caleb and see the big grapes and not the giants.

And His strategy is healing. On a Wednesday night February 4, 2004 after service, I was asked to come forward so that some of the pastors and elders could pray for me. As I stood there and as they prayed I began to first feel a peace come into me, then the peace was followed by an intense heat in the spots where the tumors were located. That night I went home with the two lumps still there but knowing that the Lord had touched me. And then the next morning I woke and one was gone.

What a morning that was, I was up at 4:30 am with all this exciting news and no one around to share it with. It was too early in the morning to call anyone with the good news so I dressed and headed off to work. On my way I called a friend in Illinois (2 hours ahead of us) because I new she would be awake and she had been praying for me. Later in the morning I made the most exciting phone calls of my life as I called Pastor Lori and the few others who knew of my health opportunity and I was able to tell them that I was healed. The remaining morning the second lump had also disappeared.

Since that time I have had “Cancer Free” mammograms and I continue to be checked annually. From that experience I can truly say that the Lord is faithful. Now do I always remember that? I wish I did, but the truth is that sometimes in my humanness I forget, but that doesn’t change the fact that He cares enough to give us Grace and Mercy along with His healing power. Today thanks to a good bra and the right cloths no one notices that 1/3 of one breast is missing and I’m not totally balanced physically.

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